So right now I should be writting my AP Euro essay or my AP Lang cluster but I have to procrastinate XD It actually helps me out in the end ha, ha.

But I thought I should give you all a little update. School is kind hard and grades close tomorrow. I'll have on C then A's and B's but that C is going to get to me. Because it's in AP Lang. I try so hard in that class and she just hates my essays D: I always get a 4 out of 9 now. I did get a 5 but not anymore, asdfjkl. Grrr. But yeah, other than that grades are good. But my art teacher is making me mad. I did a sketch for a door (we're painting the doors at our school) and she keeps complaining.

First, I was just drawing an Inuyasha and Kagome picture so I could get an idea (it helps my creativity spark okay XD) then she comes up saying, "Oh, that's very nice but we'd like to stay away from anime, I know you love it but still." If there's one thing I cannot stand it's when someone says that. Why in America where we are so freakin' diverse is anime NOT art?! I've gotten used to it by now but it still gets to me. So what if their faces are cartoon style, americans draw freakin' cartoons all the time! But yeah, then I actually started drawing the actual idea. (I'll scan it eventually but you'll have to deal with my terrible explanations |D) It's two hands dropping a rose. And there's two roses in the bottom corners and two roses in the top corners. Then there's a bow in the background. Then there's the ribbon in the back crisscrossing. And I had petals falling then she's all like, "I like it and the symmetry is good! But it seems too religious, but that's fine! Just try and add more." Just because a ribbon was going up and down it looked like a cross. First off I'm religious but I respect people's beliefs. And honestly who cares if it was religious symbolism or whatever? It just made me mad XD I haven't gotten like this in awhile. So anyways I went back and added vines. Showed it to her and she's like, "You are such a great artist you could do more to this. It's too symmetrical, so add more."

What happened to you LIKING that it was freakin' symmetrical lady! (I feel like Kidd but I don't care) Symmetry is hard but I'm glad I made it look symmetrical and trust me it's not perfect XD But still I'm just really ticked at that art teacher. She's nice but man come on. It took me about two and a half hours to think of that idea and get it sketched so it looked right! And she doesn't even tell me what she's talking about it's just "add more" or "add an image in the petals" I am not. 'Cause it'll be anime but anime is not art. asdfjkl.

Okay rant over XD Sorry. But other than that school is...eh. This past week hasn't been the best. I sat alone for lunch almost two days. The other day then half of today until my friend Annie found me. I don't like being alone so it bothered me. The people I usually hang out with at lunch and sixth ditched me completely and I feel like...I don't know. That I'm not that important to them. It hurts too 'cause I've been close to one, or so I thought, since eighth grade...but he just hangs with this other dude now. He also never tells me anything anymore or I'm last to know. I just feel like I've lost so many friends this year it's killing me honestly. My best friend I can only talk to once a week if I'm lucky and everyone else seems to be fading. So school really isn't the best right now. =/ Blah.

Hopefully I'll have something up soon. My step dad bought a $400 laptop today but no scanner. He thinks they're too expensive. A decent one that takes color well is about maybe $60? I just feel left out here too.

Oh, and I'm freakin' out because my step dad's dad has lung cancer...he's my favorite grandpa. I actually consider him my only grandpa. (My real one is just..ugh) And the doctor said he has about 4-8 months to live. And if he's lucky a year...so it just sucks. I don't want to see him die. =[ He's really one of the most amazing people I've met. No joke. I just hope he'll be okay and I'm going to pray for him like crazy.

So that's the update for now. And as you can tell my sub is now gone XD Ahhh well. I'll live probably.

I hope everything is good for you all <33

Love,
Paige